Last Day of 2009

On my way to the countdwn party at vivo now.think it's going to be great!hopefully.hahaha. Somehow,because it's the last day,I feel like I must do some reflection of the past year so here goes:

The past year has been very very eventful.There have been quite a no. of ups and downs but I guess they are all part of life.One big highlight of the year has got to be my teaching internship. It made me overcome my fear if working,it made me stronger as a person,it made me see what the teaching world was like and which led to my eventual decision to sign on. of course I know I havn't seen everything that a teacher does but I think I found my passion in teaching. At least for now that is. Nobody knows what will happen in the further but in the near future,this something I am willing to try my best.

On the other hand,another "highlight" of this year would be the passing of my grandfather. While the world lost Michael Jackson in June,I lost my grandfather. Although it has been half a year since he left us,I am reminded of him every now and then. There is so much around the house that reminds me of him. This really reflects the phrase ashes to ashes and dust to dust,you arrive on this earth with nothing and you leave this world with nothing. However,your things remain after you to remind others of you. Anyway,my grandfather's passing not only brought the family closer,it also taught me to cherish our loved ones more,rather than live later with so many regrets.

Then there was last sem which was my toughest sem in nus and as expected,I didn't do that well but there's no use crying over spilled milk.I did what I could and so now I can only work harder next sem.

So...the past year has been a trying year for me and I have only emerged stronger. Thanks to all who accompanied me one way or another during this tough year.I dunno what's install for me next year but I am ready to move forward. Happy 2010 everybody. :)


The Closure of Year 4 Sem 1

Havn't blogged for ages, I almost forgot my password even. Not sure if anybody still reads this blog either but I wanted to blog this post for my own reflection. After all, it's the last semester 1 of my NUS academic life =)

This sem...I can surely say it has been the toughest sem in my NUS life thus far. The modules, the workload, the stress...looking back, I'm still amazed at how I managed to survive all that. No matter what the end results will be, I can truly say that I did try to give it my all, although sometimes the grades didn't show that.=) Honours year is the year why you see all the year 4s in your major, some of whom we have never met before. It's a class made up of many many different personalities, some real smart, some real funny, some quite scary...etc, due to our big cohort (60 over people), I didn't manage to interact with a lot of people but nonetheless, I think geog people still rox =)

GE4101A Geog Thought A
The worse mod I have taken so far, if it wasn't a compulsory mod, I think I would nevr have gone near this mod. Philosophies, epistemologies, ontologies....everything can be summarised in one simple word, CHIM!!!!! I am the sort of person who doesn't like to think so much, be it in life or in studies, so it was really a killer!!!Why are academics so bo liao, why must they debate over such non-material stuff? they are so many material issues like inequality, poverty etc that needs attention, and not these abstract theories. Tried my best to keep afloat in this mod, no matter what the final grade turns out to be, I really really tried my best.

Ge4101B Geog Thought B
The other compulsory mod of honours year, it's not as abstract to understand, but the physical geog nature of the second half of this mod make it very dry and hard to digest. BUT..the exam was a killer!!! who asks questions like: "Why is it crucial to ask questions that make sense in geography research projects?"!!! they think we are in philosophy ah????!!Totally crazy!!!!I really duno what to expect from my grade sia!

GE4207 Coastal Management
This has got to be my most straightforward mod this sem. No need to think so abstract, they are very real world issues like sustainable tourism and coastal erosion and management topics that impact us in very real ways. However, because there were no readings assigned, it made it quite difficult to study for the exams. Nonetheless, it was enjoyable and the fieldtrip to Bintan was fun too =)

Ge4204 Urban Spaces
This mod is really quite interesting, but I think I prefer the second half of the mod to the first half. It's not just because of the topics, but also because of the lecturer. I think Dr Pow has improved very much since I last took his cities in transition mod in year 1. Nonetheless, topics like the visual-centric city or incivility are really very interesting!!But sadly, due to time constraints, I had to spot topics to study for this mod and I studies topics that didn't come out so my grades are so not going to do this mod any justice but yes, it's quite interesting =)

So, as you can see, my grades this sem are not going to be that good, think my cap will fall below 4 yet again.but oh well, I did try all I could do and I can't do anything about that now anyway.But I wouldn't have got through this sem without my dear Ladies+1 Sean group, we played tog, worked hard tog, thanks so much for giving me these wonderful memories guys!




Here's our grp's conclusion video for 4101A's presentation. We sure know how to make ourselves feel happier during stressful times.haha =)

now it's time to get started preparing for my ISM.where is my holiday man??=(


What is Geography?

What is considered a geographical project? What is space?What is..What is....So many questions, so little answers..mind boggling...I do not look forward to the deadline of having to email my outline...wed...pls do not come =(


ISM

Although I'm still rather clueless about how to frame my research project, but I'm really really happy that I got my first choice in terms of Supervisor allocation!!!!!!!!! Really!!!!!!It has been a dream come true!!My fav professor leh!!!am still very excited now =)=) Really, God really knows what's best for us and we just have to trust in him =) Thank you so much God. =)

Still in the process of meeting deadlines now, just handed up 3 papers today la! More to come.=( Tired but the above good news totally made my day =)


Happy Teachers' Day!!

Yes yes, I'm still alive!Just that I havn't been blogging lately.haha..but today is a special day which warrants a post!

I think this day never meant so much to me until today. The very coincidental meeting of 3 of my former students today made it even more special. One of them even wished me "Happy Teachers' Day", that really put a very big smile on my face. =)

In the past, we just knew that we had to thank our teachers for all their guidance in our school work, for all the patience they had when we made mistakes, for staying back to give us extra lessons etc., this was how we saw them from the "front". However, having gotten a sneak peak into the life of a teacher, I learnt to be even more grateful to my teachers. It's not just the time they spent teaching us that we need to be thankful of, but also the hours of planning and researching and organising that they spent into making every lesson enjoyable, fun and yet still educational. All the background work involved...I must admit, it really is not an easy task, and for teachers who have taught for many many years, I must think how tiring it must have been and yet, year after year, as they see their students graduate and the next batch of students enter, their passion for teaching never seems to die. This is truly admirable. *salutes*

Hence, I just wana sincerely say a big big thank you to all the teachers who have taught me in one way or another. Thank you for all the effort you have put in to nurture us young seedlings(back then) into strong and stable trees today.


The Answer Is... Yanzi's Concert is Freaking Awesome!!!!!!!!!

Went for yanzi's concert last night =)After such a long wait, all I can say is that it was so so so worth the money!! Her concert is beyond words!! The stage set up and everything was really stunning and very very refreshing! the use of the projector to display the patterns...wow..zhan!! It's very hard to translate what I saw last night into a blog post..you really have to be there to experience the whole thing, and I am so glad I did! Don't say that I am bias ok, even rong ma and yuting who are not crazy fans like me also said the concert was great so yes!!it was great!!!! I had such a great time last night!!I was so high, screaming the night away (poor rong ma's ear drumm..hahaha) until my voice was coarse at the end of the concert! but that's the fun of it, isn't it?haha..am so so high still!!

Yanzi was still yanzi, very friendly, cute and natural! she behaved like a little girl during a few parts when she was speaking..haha...and when she was preparing to sing "wan mei de yi tian", with her back facing us, the fans (aka us) started singing the first intro lines really loudly and she turned back and gave us a cheeky look and two thumbs up.hahaha..that was so cute sia!!aw...Yanzi totally rocks la!! Thank you yanzi for giving us such a superb concert and an unforgettable night! =)

Alrite, here are some photos for you all to enjoy, thanks to my good camera and my good seat (row 6 ok!!!), I got some nice shots!! aww...i am having concert withdrawal symptoms now!!

The stage...
rong ma and me before the start of the concert...
first outfit...
2nd outfit...really very cute la!!!haha
3rd outfit...
4th outfit...and her entrance for this outfit was cool la, she was on this seashell like structure that rotated around the stage and she was playing her piano on it! =)
5th outfit...
6th outfit...
last outfit..she wore like this for the encore, and I actually like this outfit the best, coz it's juz plain and simple..not that the other outfits were not nice, but I think she looks most relaxed and comfortable in this outfit =)

And here are some pics of the stage with the different patterns..totally awesome!!



and this technology, I duno what you call it...but this is a projected image of yanzi, she's not there in person actually!! it was so cool man!!!

Woo hoo!!I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)


A Really Eventful Week

This week has got to be my most eventful week in school, ever since the June hols started.Here's a brief run down of what I did :)

Monday
Accompany a class to East Coast Park for their class outing

Tuesday
Accompany the same class to NUS Anatomy Museum for a a tour of that museum. This museum is not even opened to NUS students during ordinary school term so I'm actually very grateful for the experience. But some of the exhibits were actually quite disturbing...

Wednesday
Staff induction + helping our principal to type out the template for home-based learning

Thursday
Staff Meeting + seeing how teachers had to call every student one by one to inform that some details pertaining to the H1N1 issue.

Friday
Shifting my things from the upper staffroom to the drama room, where I totally freaked out because there were 2 lizards in the room, one big and one small, but both black in colour!!yucks!!!I hate lizards!!!

School's starting next week and I got my timetable for the term, going to be observing geog and social studies classes. My supervisor also informed me that I will be taking a sec 2 class social studies, and so now I'm busy racking my brains to come up with the lesson plan. Need to start thinking like a young teenager man...although this is not to say that I'm that old ok!!!not that old until you can call me auntie at least!!!hahahaha

alrite...back to putting my thinking cap on again! =)


My First Proper Paycheck

Finally got my first proper paycheck, considering that the brief stunt at the media production house after JC did not count because I only got $300/400 a month which barely even covered my transport expenses. As part of the tradition, I drew out part of my pay to give to Daddy, Mummy, Kooma and Ah Ma...but...I'll never ever get the chance to give this money to Ah Gong anymore...If Only...

It's strange isn't it? We humans always like to use these words-"If Only". If Only I had done this, If only I had been more filial, If only this, If only that. When are we ever going to register in our head that there's no such thing as IF ONLY? There is no way that we can ever turn back time to fulfill these if only(s). Many of us, including myself, learn it the hard way, where we can no longer turn back time, where what's left are regrets and more regrets...

My dear friends,please get this in your head, in life, there are no "If Only(s)", so please do whatever you wish to do and can do today, and not wait till tomorrow, for you are never certain whether there is going to be a tomorrow.

p.s. I'm not being pessimistic, because I'm quite an optimistic person, but all these advice are just part of being practical.


Putting a Full Stop at the end of the Sentence

We cremated Ah Gong yesterday at Mandai, and this sort of marks the end of my grandfather's life. It's funny how part of me actually wished that yesterday never had to come, because that would be the last time I will ever get to look at my grandfather "physically". I think this is why the dating system was all haywire in my brain. Yes I know that the body is just a temporary shell and that I should be rejoiceing as he has gone on to join our Father in Heaven, but it's easier said than done. Everytime when one of my friend's loved one passes away, I will always tell that person that it's ok, you don't have to be sad, coz your loved one has gone to heaven and that God will provide for us. While I'm not saying that I don't believe in this, because I really do, but the don't need to be sad part is more difficult to achieve. As the Lord has taught us: "Love One Another As I Have Loved You" and so when you have put so much time and effort into loving someone, naturally, you will be upset and unwilling to let the person go. This is the reason why I didn't want to take a photo of Ah Gong at the wake or upload the photos of the wreaths into my computer, it's not because I'm scared or am morbid, as what my brother keeps saying, but because it's still too painful to look.

But well, as the saying goes, "Time will heal all wounds", I'm sure I'll get past this "sad phase" and move on to the phase where I only feel happiness everytime I recall all the fond memories of how Ah Gong has contributed to my life.

In a way, these 3 days sort of brought our immediate family together, as we gathered to send my grandfather off on his final journey. I guess this is something to be thankful for and maybe Ah Gong will be happy seeing us altogether like this, as he always loved getting everyone together like this to celebrate an occasion. This time round, we are gathered to celebrate his' entrance into Heaven.

Ah Gong, hope you are enjoying yourself in Heaven. I hope to see you there in future. =)


A Post Dedicated to my Ah Gong, my grandfather.

Dear Ah Gong,

I hope you are on your way to heaven now, where you will no longer feel any pain. I'm not sure how much you suffered before you passed on this morning, but I'm sure it would have been much less than what you would have felt had you had to endure the final stages of your cancer.

Although Daddy and you had your differences, especially when both of you are equally headstrong, I want to tell you that Daddy actually loves you very much. Today was the first time in my life that I saw Daddy cry. Thanks for being such a great ah gong to me. I know I have not been spending much time with you ever since I grew up, but I never ever forgot how you took care of me when I was in kindergarden and in primary 1, how you brought me to K1 and K2 school, tuition classes in pri 1, ballet classes and picked me up at tampines mrt station every day without fail, so that we could take bus 81 back home. I never said this to you, but I am really grateful for those times and I really love you.

When we found you unconscious in the room this morning, it started to rain heavily, as if heaven was weeping. I know I should not feel sad because you have gone on to join our father in heaven, and he will provide for you, but my eyes just well up with tears each time I think of you now.As your room is directly opposite mine, I always have the habit of peeping in everytime i pass by to enter my room, seeing you folding your clothes, lying on the bed etc...now, as I look in, it's just an empty bed frame......But don't worry about us, we will be strong and you will forever remain in my heart as my beloved grandfather who took such good care of me.

Ah Gong,Wo Ai Ni.Ni An Xi Ba.

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